35. TRUSTING YOURSELF AGAIN AFTER HEARTBREAK: HEATHER MELVILLE ON FASTING, VAN LIFE, AND NOURISHMENT

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SEASON 3, EPISODE 1

In this episode, ILA Radio welcomes Heather Melville, a creative, engineer, and seeker who has learned to rebuild trust with herself through fasting, van life, and communion with nature.

With a Leo stellium and a heart attuned to both fire and feeling, Heather lives at the intersection of creativity and discipline—balancing the mind’s logic with the body’s wisdom. From her background in stage lighting and electrical engineering to her spiritual practices of fasting and psilocybin journeys, she reminds us that true nourishment begins in listening to the heart.

This episode is for anyone learning to trust themselves again after heartbreak—for those who’ve overthought, overfed, or overanalyzed their way out of peace. Through stories of simplicity, stillness, and self-follow-through, Heather reveals how emptiness can bring clarity, how nature teaches patience, and how creative energy returns once we honor what the heart knows.

🎧 Listen in and remember:
you can’t think your way into trust—you have to live, feel, and listen your way back to it.

For more on Heather, visit:

https://www.healthyrelationships.info/

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NOTES FROM THE EPISODE
RE: CONNECTION TO THE
ORNELIAN FRAMEWORK

Click below to learn about the different ways of knowing

MIND・Analytical Knowing

ARIES・Experiential Knowing

HM: listen to your heart and take action. don’t get stuck in overthinking/collecting data.

HM: wisdom from fasting

TAURUS・Cultural Knowing

GEMINI・Empirical Knowing

HM: not eating is a mind game; it misses the sensations

HM: saying you’re going to do something and then following through and doing it is how to start to build trust; the more you do it the more evidence your mind has to trust you again

BODY・Embodied Knowing

CANCER・Emotional Knowing

HM: “I always say on my birthday. I don’t need a big thing. I just want to eat whatever I want. I want some type of desert. And I want to be in a body of water.

DM (Cancer Moon): needs that knowing in order to create

LEO・Playful Knowing

HM (Leo Stellium): originally wanted to be an actress, switched to degrees in stagelighting and electrical engineering

DM (Leo in Jupiter): using AI as the fire that expands him and his work; listen to hear how he relates it to Prometheus

VIRGO・Somatic Knowing

HM: we are creative beings. you have to figure out the modality that works best for you.

DM (Virgo Stellium): feeling best when in nature; built an app based on intuition and working with AI

SPIRIT・Narrative Knowing

DM: “She says, ‘Myths? We don’t consider these myths. We consider this information. This is all information.”

DM: “if you look at it, everything is just information that we can just utilize in this world”

LIBRA・Aesthetic Knowing

DM: discusses his music and how to achieve balance

HM: building something with your partner is a great test of a relationship; another test is to live together in a small space

SCORPIO・Relational Knowing

DM: discusses his song about Frankenstein and his bride

SAGITTARIUS・Participatory Knowing

HM: Nature teaches us to just be.

HM: Could it be that after being human, the next step up is to reincarnate into a tree?

HM: I can feel it through my heart — the tree’s age, its message, maybe just a whisper of gratitude or peace.

DM: I hug trees. I talk to animals. All animals love me. I love nature. I go to the park once a week. Everything is alive. I like to be connected.

SOUL・Reflective Knowing

DM: Shadow work is continuous. You have to go deep.

CAPRICORN・Rational Knowing

HM: even though something makes sense to do on paper doesn’t mean that you should do it if your heart is not in it

DM: uses reason and intuition together simultaneously

AQUARIUS・Archetypal Knowing

DM (Aquarius Rising): On the intro to my second album, I don’t speak in words, I speak in shapes.

“I’m speaking in metaphors and pictures because that’s how we see things; that is our fastest way of communication”

PISCES・Spiritual Knowing

HM: psilocybin on a mountain to gain clarity as part of a full SMBS cleanse (fasting was also part of the cleanse)

HM: listen to hear about her fasting experience and to find out who she is quoting when she says “a man with a full belly has a thousand problems, but a man with an empty belly only has one”

HM: the psilocybin brings you back to source and to that togetherness

HM: “How to Change Your Mind” about LSD and psilocybin scientists

DM (SN Pisces) brought up the seven clairs:

  • Clairvoyance — Clear Seeing 👁️ The ability to receive intuitive insight through mental images, symbols, colors, or visions. You might “see” flashes, dreamlike scenes, or light around people and places.
  • Clairaudience — Clear Hearing 🎧 The perception of intuitive messages through sound — words, music, tones, or internal phrases that seem to come from beyond your own thoughts.
  • Clairsentience — Clear Feeling 💞 The ability to feel energy or emotions from people, spaces, or situations. You sense truth, mood, or vibration through your body — the “gut feeling” or empathic knowing.
  • Claircognizance — Clear Knowing 💡 When you just know something without knowing how you know. Sudden insights, downloads, or truths that arrive whole and complete.
  • Clairalience — Clear Smelling 🌹 The intuitive sense of scent — like catching a whiff of perfume when no one’s around, or smelling flowers, smoke, or herbs connected to a memory or presence.
  • Clairgustance — Clear Tasting 🍯 The ability to taste something without physically eating it — often linked to spirit communication, ancestral memory, or energetic association (like tasting honey when receiving sweetness or healing).
  • Clairtangency — Clear Touch ✋ Also called psychometry, this is when you receive intuitive information through physical contact — touching an object, plant, or person and feeling its energetic history or essence

COURSES

Each of the 16 Ways of Knowing opens a unique doorway into understanding yourself and the world. Our courses help you walk through those doors with clarity, confidence, and curiosity.

ABOUT THE HOST

Laura Alyn is an educator, intuitive PhD researcher, astrologer, spiritual practitioner, and founder of the ILA Institute. She blends spiritual insight with academic curiosity to build new pathways of knowing—for individuals and for the future of education. To learn more about her, click on her below or click here.

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